Change

26 11 2008

I changed my blog’s layout partly to reflect the uneasiness and unsettling feeling I have in my life right now. People around me are changing, things I thought I could rely on are changing, and I’m finding myself feeling very uncomfortable. I still have that sense of being unbalanced in many parts of my life. School has settled down, once I made a plan for myself and started getting things done. But emotionally, I feel wobbly and out of sorts. People seem to be acting strangely…is it the holidays? Is everyone just stressed?

I wish things could stay the same.





Worshipping the Obama Idol

21 11 2008

Is it just me, or are people freaking out a little too much over Obama’s election win and upcoming presidency? I was moved and overwhelmed on election night, just like most people, but I’m seeing tons of commercials for Obama commemorative coins, plates, and whatever else. It’s taking something important, solemn, and memorable and turning it into something cheesy! I hate to say it, but people are overreacting!

Obama is not a rock star and he’s not a god. He’s not perfect. People are looking to him to deliver unreasonable promises, and the second he is unable to satisfy his rabid fans, he’s going to be eaten alive. He’s only one man. He’s not a messiah, come down to earth to deliver us from the evil of Bush/Cheney. It disturbs me greatly that people have put him on this pedestal…eventually he’s going to fall off, and fall hard.

I have great hopes for Obama’s presidency, and I was proud to vote for him. But…come on, people! It’s time to calm down a little and realize that the challenged he’s going to face, what we all have to face, are some of the most difficult in history. He’s going to need all our help…not our worship and adoration.





Unbalancing Act

21 11 2008

I’ve been feeling very unbalanced this week. Mostly I’ve been dealing with a pervasive depression that won’t seem to lift its hold on me, but I’ve also been feeling agitated and nervous. It could be because I’m coming close to the end of the fall semester, which means I’m running out of time for certain assignments. But maybe it’s a mental or spiritual thing I’m dealing with. In any event, I have some ideas for getting my mind back into a sense of balance.

First, I will create a day-to-day schedule of everything I need to do, from now until December 19 (the last day of finals). Every assignment, exam, and essay will be mapped out, taking the worry out of my head and onto a sheet of paper.

Second, I will make sure that I am spending at least 2 hours a day NOT doing homework. I will spend this time reading for pleasure, checking in with my favorite blogs, browsing for Christmas gifts, and generally relaxing.

I have come to the conclusion that in order to rid myself of this depression and agitation, I need to get myself out of my head. Taking online classes is not only difficult because of the homework load, but also because it robs me of the pleasure of escaping from my studies. My classes are right here, on my computer. My class schedules are tacked up on my wall. My books are stacked on my desk. I’m never really away from school. I’ve been doing this for a long time, and I’ve learned that it’s easy to get extremely overwhelmed. There have been many times when I have wanted to quit and go back to work, but I know that I need to finish, not only to open up opportunities for me, but also for my own self-worth. But it’s not worth it if I can’t find myself after I’m done.





Feeling Lonely

14 11 2008

It’s weird, but even though I live with my boyfriend, and we’re both here at home together all day every day, I’ve been feeling really lonely lately. I don’t know if I’m feeling ignored or what…maybe I’m just hormonal. But with both of us struggling through difficult classes this semester, we haven’t really had time for each other. What I really want is a snuggle on the couch.

But he’s working out in the garage, and I’m here talking to you.





Bloggers Unite for Refugees

10 11 2008

In honor of today’s Bloggers Unite focus on the plight of refugees around the world, I want to call your attention to Amnesty International’s campaign for refugees. You can find the information on their website, here. In short, Amnesty is campaigning for the safety and protection of rights of refugees all around the world, including 2.5 million people who have been forced to flee their homes in Iraq. They have been targeted by insurgent groups for their religion, ethnicity, or because they assisted U.S. troops. They are living in extremely poor conditions, and in countries that initially welcomed them, such as Jordan and Syria, they are now being forced to leave.

Here are the refugee Human Rights Goals, as listed on Amnesty’s website:

1. Promote the Right to Seek Asylum

2. Prevent Arbitrary Detention of Asylum Seekers

3. Stop Forced Return of Refugees

4. Provide Protection to Especially Vulnerable Groups

5. Support Asylum Seekers with Human Rights Information

6. Advocate for Humane Treatment of Refugees and Migrants

We need to help these people for one simple reason: we can, and they deserve it. By getting involved with Amnesty’s numerous projects that help and advocate for refugees, you can accomplish a lot for these unfortunate people. For more information about the Iraq Displacement and Amnesty’s Human Rights Goals, please visit their website.





Election Night: 48 Hours Later

6 11 2008

It’s hard to sum up my reactions to Barack Obama’s victory Tuesday night in one blog post. I’ve put it off until now, because I just couldn’t articulate my elation, and I probably won’t even succeed now. For me, election night was quietly spent at home with my boyfriend, as we anxiously watched each state’s results come in. At around 7:45, when I saw the blue and red states spread across MSNBC’s electoral map, and I saw the vote count, I said to myself,”If only they can hold off calling Colorado and Indiana for Obama until the West Coast comes in…I want the West Coast to deliver Obama the victory!” Well, when our local polls closed at 8:00 pm, MSNBC simultaneously called the states of California, Oregon, and Washington for Barack Obama, pushing him well over the 270 threshold of electoral votes, declaring him the next president of the United States. My boyfriend and I jumped up and yelled, and the tears suddenly started rolling down my face. For 10 minutes I cried, as I watched the jubilant crowds across the country yelling and cheering, their own tears running down their cheeks.

What is it about this man that inspires so many millions of people with hope? Were we really that hopeless before? From the moment he sauntered so coolly onto the national state 4 years ago, giving the keynote address at the 2004 Democratic National Convention, he has captured the imagination of the entire country. After 8 years of President Bush ruining our international image, after wincing at his inability to put words together into a coherent sentence, and after losing hope that America would ever be a great nation again, the American people were hungry for real change.

John McCain represented just more of the same. His choice of Sarah Palin as his VP only reinforced the impression that he was pandering to the extreme right of his party, and there was no longer any hope that he was going to be a true bipartisan player in the White House. It was so obvious from the beginning that he believed that by picking a woman, any woman, he would attract women voters, who traditionally vote Democratic. But Sarah Palin does not represent the values of modern American women, and the struggles that women have gone through to attain the freedom they now enjoy, the very freedom that allowed her to become a governor, let alone a Vice Presidential candidate. She is a mockery of the success of feminism, and it was an insult to women to see her on the Republican ticket. In the end, a large majority of women voted for Obama.

Although I never entertained even an idea of voting for him, I know of other Democrats who had a healthy respect for him. That respect was soon lost, however, when McCain began his negative campaigning, veering away from any real discussion of the issues and simply attacking Obama personally, even sometimes racially. McCain himself never uttered one racist attack on Obama, but his campaign ads played on the racist fears of some Americans, painting him as an “other” that they had to be afraid of. His campaign strategy was despicable, and even though I give Palin most of the credit for McCain’s loss, the rest goes to the racism that his negative campaign encouraged. The fact that Obama won so many traditionally Republican states, including Virginia and North Carolina, proves that America is really ready to move on from the racially-inspired fear tactics of the Republican party. They now have the unenviable task of reorganizing and rethinking their party’s priorities and direction.

Barack Obama’s historic victory gives me hope that at long last, even with the tremendous challenges we face, our country is on the right path. By electing the first African-American president, the son of an immigrant, we have finally validated our standing as a world leader for freedom, opportunity, and equality. I’ve never been more proud to be an American than I was on Tuesday night, as I watched the cheering crowds and listened to Obama’s humble, yet courageous message of hope.